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Actually I have a few updates but will post them later cuz at the moment i am feeding the little one and its hard to type with one hand! haha.
- Mood:
chipper
I just dont think i can give it the attention it really needs lol
i dont have time really to blog and read everyday and when I do get on the pc i am soo far behind in reading everyones journals....
with the new baby running me ragged I think I am calling it quits.. which is strange for me cuz i am usually not a quiter! LOL
I think LJ will survive without me though haha.
Sooo farewell all.. sorry i didnt have anything really interesting to write on here ...
oh before i go though I do want to wish a very very happy brthday to my great friend wyte!! oh and if nyone ever finds their way to facebook look me up under Deniz Maria Nye...
Love you all and take Luck!
Okay here is what happened....
Wenesday we were all at the mall... we meaning myself, my hubby, my threee year old, my 7wk old and my mother in law.
Anyway myself, hubby and three year old were in the arcade playing games. My mother in law was walking around pushing my 7wk old in a stroller. I just happen to be at the front of the arcade when I watch my mother in law walking to a store across the mall. Its a shoe store. Glass windows all in front. She prceeds to leave the stroller with my 7wk old baby boy outside if the store and walks into the store to look at a pair of shoes on the wall near the window! I scream to my husband to get our boy. He walks over and tells his mom what was she thinking and not to ever do it again.
her response " i was wasnt far and I wasnt going to take long!"
WTF###
No matter how long your going to be you dont leave a child.. let alone a 7wk old sitting in a stroller outside of a store wether or not your not that far and if it has glass windows so you can see or whatever. It only takes 2 seconds for someone to walk up and walk away with my kid. I was furious and soo scared! What the hell was she thinking!? No wonder she didnt take care of her own kids and they ended up in foster care.... okay that was a bit mean but still!!
I was to mad to say anything to my mother inlaw at that point so i didnt talk to her the rest of the day. only a yes or no when she asked to get me something. I still havnt been able to really talk to her. And when she offers to watch or hold the kids while i go take a shower or something I say neal can get it. I dont even trust her watching them when i am in the house anymore.. anyway thats the last time i let her with my kids out of my sight for a second!! Maybe I am being a little oc=verdramatic but I would never do something like that.. who does that! Who leaves somenes kid outside of a store even for a second?
- Mood:
pissed off
SCATTERGORIES...it's harder than it looks! Hit Forward, erase my answers, enter yours, send it on to 10 people including the one that sent this to you.
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things ... nothing made up!
Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question. And you can not use the same word twice
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things ... nothing made up!
Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question. And you can not use the same word twice
WHAT IS YOUR NAME: | Maria |
BOY NAME: | Matthew |
4 LETTER WORD: | More |
GIRL NAME: | Madison |
OCCUPATION: | Medical Technician |
A COLOR: | Magenta |
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: | Mocasins |
BEVERAGE: | Mountain Dew |
A FOOD: | Mashed potatoes |
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: | Magazines |
A PLACE : | Madrid |
REASON FOR BEING LATE: | Makeup |
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: | Mother F*****!! |
The ultrasound showed the baby was about 5lbs 10ounces... so not as big as everyone thought. The reason they said my tummy was bigger was becasue I havnt gained weight anywhere else and The baby is surround by alot of fluid which is good. All my water weight is in my belly and ankles LOL. so since I have a month left I am looking somewhere towards having a 7 in a half to just under 8lb baby by my due date.... Considereing that in the last month of pregnacy the baby can gain about 6-8 ounces a week in the last month of pregnancy.... Soo with that the doctor and I discussed having a vaginal birth..... they sent me home with a paper about all the risks of having a VBAC (vaginal birth after csection) can cause.....
and frankly it scared me a bit! Some things that could go wrong during delivery is of course the scaring and tearing at the csection... In addition my uterus could rupture, I could have internal bleeding, their is a higher chance of the baby being born brain damaged, their is a chance i could develop tress urinary incontinance after the delivery, all because where the csection part is its a non contracting part of the uterus.... Now mind you this is a 30% chance. The paper says that 70% of women you have VBAC have a successful delivery... But that 30% percent is still kinda worrying me... Sooo what would you guys do? would you take the chance or would you just schedule a csection the week of yor due date.. which is kinda what I am leaning towrds.. but I still whanted to experience the vaginal birth soo.... I dont know......
My appointments to the doctor are every week now.. the next one is tuesday the 23rd and then The hubby have our 4 year wedding anniversary oon the 27th..... Their is a chance the baby can still come on its own however and not give me much of a choice on what delivery method I use LOL.. I think that would be esiest not to have o make the choice myself! haha... My hubby and family members say maybe I should just go fo rthe csection again because I already know what it will involve and the pain that follows I can handle cuz I have already done it. I just probably wont be able to take my little girl trick or treating for very long cuz I still wont be able to walk very much by halloween.... hmm so many decisions to make haha!
one thing that is awesome though is I have my nursery ready and my hospital bag packed so I am ready for whatever i suppose!
until next entry GOB BLESS!!
BTW here are the ultrasound pics from wenesday... its just of the babys face but I love it!
- Mood:
distressed
apparently we are having a class reunion after all.... unfortunalty for me its the weekend before my babys due date....
so do i go and risk going into labor at the party or just forget about it!? LOL
I probably wont go... just being silly.... which sucks cuz i actually wanted to go.... looking forward to it all year in fact. maybe i can get them to move it to my hospital room! HAHA
god bless ya'll
- Mood:
geeky
my baby shower was awesome yesterday! everyone who showed up had a great time and I got some really great things for the baby... I pretty much got everything I need ecept a pack-in-play but i saw a great one at target i liked and the hubbies foster parents are sending me a gift card to get that... soo thats awesome!!
I got alot of very cute outfits and probably enough diapers to last about two or three months! haha
anyway my daughter is fussing and i have company so i gots to make this short!
sooo my appointments are now every two wks and then they will be down to every week until the baby comes.. which may be early...
They are going to give me an ultrasound in four wks and see how big the baby is and see if anything is really cause for concern....
If soo then that means another c-section and the baby comes early....
which i dont mind the baby coming a bit early if hes healthy.. hoping he is healthy and everything is perfect.. i really dont mind another c-section.. but the recovery from it is just a bitch!
anyway i have 9wks left til my due date.. wow it seems the time has flown by..... my baby shower is coming up septmber 5th.... hope i get alot of boystuff.... anyway.. until next entry
godbless
I have been packing some stuff we dont use on an everyday basis as an incentive to move out of my small house and into something bigger.... I think we have a place in mind but we have to wait for the previous tenants of the place to move out first... Them being my hubbies bro and sister inlaw. They keep saying they are moving out as soon as they find a place but everytime they find something it doesnt turn out like it should for some reason or another.. I like their place cuz its still close to my rents house and its way bigger than my place and under what we can pay a month. Actually their place is across the street and one house down from mine! LOL So we are still close the the hubbies work and same landlord so its all good. They have a four bedroom place and the master bedroom has a little nursery in it. pluse the living room is bigger than mine and it also has a den and fireplace.
well thats my news lol.....
well after a long day yesterday and an even longer doctors appointment...... WE ARE HAVING A BOY!!!!
I am excited and nervous! All the little boys I have come across are more rambunctious and just more aggressive than my little girl! However I now have one of each so my life is complete! I have a wonderful husband a beautiful little girl and in about 4 months I will have a little boy! I have always wanted one of each child and wanted to stop at just two hoping I would just have one of each.. so this is perfect! The middle and last name (of course) has already been picked out...... We just havnt decided on a first name.. however its between these two: Spencer O'neal Nye or James O'neal Nye......
Let me know what you guys think! I may go with the one that has the most votes!!! LOL... I like them both.... I especially like Spencer O'neal nye because the initials spell out SON... I also like James because its after my hubbies foster dad and hes an awesome guy!
Anyway thats my news! LOL
- Mood: happy
- Music:"With a Little Help from My Friends," sung by Joe Cocker.
My hormones and emotions are out of whack! last Saturday I woke up with a feeling that something bad was going to happen to my husband. well fo rth life of me I couldnt shake the feeling.. I didnt want him to go to work but I knew he had to and he said he would call me as soon as he got their to let me know he was safe... well he forgot to call... and i started freaking out! especially when I called his cell like 10 times with no answer. I even called my mom and sis to go look for him! well he finnaly calls and I am likeing crying and cussing him out at the same time and hes laughing at me cuz he knows my hormones are whats really getting me upset.. so he apologizes for not calling sooner and said he just got busy with customers and he will call back.. well he did call me every hour after that until he came home and was safe! Hes such a wonderful understanding husband.. when he got home he was like "at least I know you really care about me!!" LOL anyway I am house hunting so I will write some tomarrow or the next day when I get back from the doctors! tata for now!
- Mood: cheerful
As far as my pregnancy is going.... my husband gets sick in the mornings and i get sick in the evenings. we are sharing the symptoms this time. I have no sex drive what so every.. how can you have sex when you constantly feel like throwing up. Last time i was pregant I had a big sex drive.. made the hubby happy... Hes soo wonderful. He is very tenative when I am preganant. making sure I am okay and I have everything I need.
I about killed our dog this morning. we let her out to go to the bathroom and she decides to find deer crap and roll around in it. As soon as she walked into the house the smell just hit me. I made the hubby wash her.. hey i am pregnant i cant be around toxins! LOL the dog better be lucky i didnt end up shaving her!
- Mood:
indescribable
UGH i am going to throw up again!!!
I am going to try to eat some saltines and drink some gingerale.. maybe that will help.....
- Mood:
crappy
Takes test... wait a few minutes.... test positive!
Baby #2 may be on the way...... Will take another test later, going to doctors to confirm.....
Ready or not......
Hasnt suck in quite yet that I may really be prgnat with 2nd child.... Kinda in shock! LOL Eiether way the husband is exstatic and a little nervous. He had the morning sickness last time I was preganant.
Well nothing gets you cracking down on saving money like another kid. I kinda thought we would own a home instead of rent one before I had another one.... Well if confirmation is postive then we have 10 months LOL. So much for getting in shape this year! HAHAHA
- Mood:
contemplative
Anyway... Not much else to report... My life has pretty much been same thing different day lately.....
My mom and sisters want to go see my aunt in maryland on the 17th.. she is still ill but at least she isnt bed ridden anymore..... I am not sure I want to make the trip this time... For one I dont have the money to go... and two.... last time i was soo miserable I dont know if i can do it again.. this time if i go however i would take my daughter along so she can play in the snow.. but thats the only plus..... The husband doesnt want me to go.. he says whats the point if I have such a miserable time..... He said its sad that my aunt isnt doing very well.. but .... i dont know.. i probably wont go..but then again I may be talked into going by my mom and sisters..... UUGGHHH
- Mood: annoyed
- Music:HInder---GET STONED
In no particular order:
Find out when and where my 10 year high school reunion is and go
Get into somewhat of shape for the high school reunion
Try to eat healthier and excercise more
See how long I can go without a snickers or a 3 musketeers bar LOL
Have more sex! (do you realize you can burn alot of calories in just having sex! What a fun excerize!)
Try not to get pregnant by having alot of sex LOL (I really dont want another kid this year)
Start an internet buisness so I can have some mad money by christmas time
Work on my cross stich projects and novel
Finish up some of my scrapbooks
Make a new friend
Take more risks
Defeat one fear
(I think that about does it.......)
- Mood:
awake - Music:Shawn Mullins----Rockabye
Anyway a bit of good news though it is the new years and I wish everyone the best., I get to spend a few weeks in Georgia late April early May cuz thats when my friends baby is due... shes having a little girl... and she needs someone to help out while she is in the hospital and take care of her little boy. Her husband is in Iraq and she really has no one else cuz her mom and sis are complete jerks and her dad is really sick. Anyway we have a great time talking and just hanging out and my daughter and her son get along great, I think it would be really cool and funny if they grew up and got married lol. Anyway so I am excited about that. Even though I am going to curl myself up in the bedroom and watch the monk marathon on today.. I may come out ever now and then to watch a little football with my hubby but like i said i really dont feel well and I have a continuos pain in my chest and right arm that has been their since yesterday afternoon...... Everyone wants me to go get it checked but lack of money and really not wanting to pervents me from going.
Well i hope everyone has and will have a great new years! Love you all and may you all be blessed!
- Mood: crappy
I think i mentioned before that we did get our daughter that 250 dollar butterscotch horse... well the hubby and i are debating wether or not to give it to her tonight or in the morning. We were thinking if we gave it to her in the morning she may not open her other gifts and just play with the horse.. lol But if we gave it to her today then she will play with it and open her other gifts tomarrow.. what do you guys think?
anyway happy holidays to everyone! i hope santa brings evryone everything theywant...
- Mood: chipper
One more week to have the kids.... They go into foster care right after christmas....
I feel really bad about it... But their isnt really much I can do about it because it's not just my descion here. Everyone is tired of being tired and aggravated all the time. The thing that really bothers me however is the social worker is going to give Andrew (the 2 year old boy) a pshycologly evaluation. okay the kid is two.... why would they give him a mental evaluation? I can see giving his mom one which is what they are also doing but a two year old? He has already been through alot so why put him through more? I just hope they dont fill his head with BullShit.... which is probably what thyare going to do. Two year olds are very impressionable. He has the attention spain of a goldfish. I think if they did give him an evaluation his mom should be able their. Llike in the next room watching through one of those one way mirror things like they do in police stations when they interogate kids. Just to make sure they are not critazing him or putting things in his head.
Christmas is one week away and I am soo not done with shopping... It just seems every year our family gets bigger and their are mor people to buy for and more christmas cards to send out.
We had taken pics with santa the other day.... for some reason i dont like it.... Saffet wouldnt sit in santas lap and so i had to hold her and we were off to the side.. and i dont like the santa's smile..... I dont you guys tell me what you all think.....
I suppose its not completly bad.. I just dont like it... So i dont think i will be sending it with my christmas cards this year..... I will take some others around our tree and mail them out later.. because i had already mailed out my cards.
Until next entry.. All be safe!
- Mood: depressed
- Music:Colbie Caillat-- Tailor Made
